Dear Sponsor,

I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written, but I really am still here, living the steps and traditions to the best of my ability, just very quietly. I have to confess that I have doubts about whether I have anything worthy of sharing or that I even have your audience. I have to report some changes to somebody, and you are my primary point of accountability.

I had back surgery nearly ten weeks ago and, ever since, I have been sedentary by order of the doctor, and have put on a few pounds, mostly in the midsection. This physical change is evidence that I am overeating on my current plan of eating. It reminds me of the time when I arrived at my goal weight and used red potatoes to halt my weight loss, and even correct an underweight problem when maintenance began. Therefore, I have cut out the serving and a half of red potatoes, a 165-calorie component of my daily meal plan. This changes my daily calorie goal from 2000 to 1835, with a plus or minus 100 margin as before (emphasis on the minus until my weight is corrected).

I expect to return to work within the next week or two, when my level of activity will return to normal. My physical therapy and walking routines are simply not enough to keep me healthy and strong and maintain a healthy body weight.

As for the rest of my recovery, I must confess isolated rest has taken an effect on my sense of usefulness and maybe even worth. It’s hard to remind myself that healing from surgery and regenerating cellular structures constitutes God’s will for me at this time, but He is giving me the power to carry it out.