Abstinent Today:

I am a gratefully recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more* day at a time.  †

I enjoyed my day today, even though I had lots of errands to run.  I took our new dog to the vet, did some shopping, and got new ID photos.  No one believes the old ones are me anymore. That’s a fun problem to have, though waiting at the DMV is never fun for anyone.

From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“Just staying abstinent—if it’s all I can do today—is reaching for recovery.” — For Today, p. 167

I had a binge dream two nights ago, and the waking moments since have seemed like starting over.  Still, being abstinent, whether it is between two meals or between two sunrises is a miracle, and I will not cheapen it by taking even one abstinent day for granted.

Thank You, God, for my food and for freeing me from my food!

From Proverbs 12, NIV:

10 The righteous care for the needs of their animals,
but the kindest acts of the wicked are cruel.

The family pets were merely an annoyance when I was living to please myself.  Now I am enjoying being a part of a family of quadrupeds, a winged creature, my precious bride and me.  I even find it a joy to help out occasionally.

From my reading through the Bible, currently in James 5, NIV:

You have lived on earth in luxury and self-indulgence. You have fattened yourselves in the day of slaughter;

As much as many of the helpful bits of instruction in this chapter mean to me, this verse stood out most.  It is addressed to the wealthy (verse 1), so I have overlooked it in the past considering myself anything but rich; but now that I am acquainting myself with the poor of the earth, I am ashamed to be grouped into these who are being addressed by this passage.  Oh how I have hoarded resource upon resource for my own self-gratification and to assuage my fears!

God, thank You for forgiveness from a past marked by such selfishness.  Cleanse me daily from a nature that is bent on serving my own interests. Help me find ways to be about the needs of others and keep me focused on loving You through serving them.

From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, pages 42 and 43:

”Quite as important was the discovery that spiritual principles would solve all my problems. I have since been brought into a way of living infinitely more satisfying and, I hope, more useful than the life I lived before. My old manner of life was by no means a bad one, but I would not exchange its best moments for the worst I have now. I would not go back to it even if I could.”

Footnotes:

*Abstinence began for me on May 11th, 2010.

† For the sake of accountability, the details of my eating are posted in my online food log.

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