Abstinent Today:

I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more* day at a time.  †

Today marks two and a half years of one-day-at-a-time abstinence, for which I am grateful to God, who enables me.

Please accept my apologies for the technical difficulties yesterday that caused things to look a little different than normal and may have hit subscribers with duplicate notifications.





From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“…then we acted as if God were really, exactly what we wanted and needed our Higher Power to be.” — The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, p. 16

In Step Two, we came to believe that God could and would rescue us from the bondage of self that made our lives so unmanageable, if He were sought. (paraphrase mine)  But belief only changes minds; faith is what changes actions.   By “acting as if” we were doing one of two things: either putting action to our belief to change it into faith, or trying something we weren’t sure we believed in.  Even in the latter case, we were exercising faith, because moving in a direction we hadn’t gone before took at least a mustard seed worth of the stuff.  Lack of any better option does not disqualify the object of our belief or discredit our faith.  History is filled with people who were walled in so they could not find any other way.

God will be found by those who seek Him, and He is faithful to reveal Himself in every case, to bring glory to His name.  No one will be held accountable for not fully understanding God or having expectations of Him, as if there were any human capable of any such knowledge.  Those who will continue to suffer and die in their suffering will do so for their denial that He exists and defiance of His love, which waits to restore them to union with Him.

So go ahead!  Act as if God’s love is big enough for you.  I promise, no matter how you think of God, you are underestimating Him.  On the Day when His glory is fully revealed, we will find that we all underestimated Him!




From Proverbs 12 (NKJV):

28 In the way of righteousness is life,
And in its pathway there is no death.”

There is good reason for acting as if God is, loves, and saves.  It’s because He does!






From my reading through the Bible,” currently in Daniel 5:

The Babylonians held the treasuries of Jerusalem, and one of Nebuchadnezzar’s descendants, Belshazzar, thought it would liven up his party to have some of the holy goblets from the temple brought out to entertain his wives, guests, and concubines.  It was then that a hand appeared and inscribed in the plaster of the meeting hall a mystery that terrified the king.  At his wife’s direction, he called for Daniel, who explained the mystery by chastising the king.

23b You praised the gods of silver and gold, of bronze, iron, wood and stone, which cannot see or hear or understand. But you did not honor the God who holds in his hand your life and all your ways. 24 Therefore he sent the hand that wrote the inscription.

25 ‘This is the inscription that was written:

mene, mene, tekel, parsin[e]

26 ‘This is what these words mean:

Mene[f]: God has numbered the days of your reign and brought it to an end.

27 Tekel[g]: You have been weighed on the scales and found wanting.

28 Peres[h]: Your kingdom is divided and given to the Medes and Persians.’”

That very night, the Babylonian Empire was overthrown by Darius the Mede, and the king was slain.

Heavenly Father, I know that my human days are numbered.  I thank You for bringing to my attention that, on my own, I am incomplete.  I recognize that I live at the crossroad of two kingdoms – that of man and that of Heaven.  I choose to neglect the kingdom of the flesh to serve the Kingdom of Spirit.  Strengthen and purify me for that service, by Your Word; and, as You were jealous for Your goblets of gold, let me not be defiled again by the folly of the world.





From Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 99:

“Lord, make me a channel of thy peace – that where there is hatred, I may bring love – that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness – that where there is discord, I may bring harmony – that where there is error, I may bring truth – that where there is doubt, I may bring faith – that where there is despair, I may bring hope – that where there are shadows, I may bring light – that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.  Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted – to understand, than to be understood – to love, than to be loved.  For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.  It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.  It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.  Amen.”







*Abstinence began for me on May 11th, 2010.

For the sake of accountability, the details of my eating are posted in my online food log.

In order to shed light on the old truths from a different angle and exercise my willingness with a little change, I switched from using the New International Version (NIV or “NIV1984”) to the New King James Version (NKJV) just for this month’s reading of Proverbs.