Abstinent Today:

I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more* day at a time.  †





From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“In OA we have discovered that humility is simply an awareness of who we really are today and a willingness to become all that we can be.” — The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, p. 60

I was just editing my prayer list, and praying it at the same time.  I labored to come up with a short phrase that would represent my concern over a particular person on that list who suffers from all the ills of self-concern, including the unrecognized symptom of compulsive overeating.   I want for her to recognize God’s will for her and to receive the power to carry that out, but since that is the prayer I pray for anybody on my list, I needed something more specific.  I tried to define my concern for her as “awareness” but that was too general, for she needs to become aware both of herself and of God’s love and power to sustain her.  I thought of listing it as “God-awareness” but that too fell short of encompassing my sentiment, and risked putting her in my old shoes of knowing full well that God is mighty, but refusing to let Him demonstrate it in her life.  “Self-awareness” might work, but that omitted the real need – that of God’s moving, living power.  I solved my dilemma with the addition of a mathematical symbol and wrote out what has been for me the formula for peaceful existence:

awareness of God > self

Knowing God is not enough.  Even the devils acknowledge His existence.  Self-knowledge is not enough.  Even a murderous tyrant knows who he is and what he wants.  This VOR entry gets it right by inserting our self-awareness into a proper position and alignment with our God-awareness, and accepting His value of us, His plan for us, and His will for our lives, our days, our meals, our moments, and our eternities.




From Proverbs 31 (NLT):

O my son, O son of my womb, O son of my vows…”

On this, the last day of my exploration of the New Living Translation, I have chosen a verse that is a word for word mirror of the New International Version.  The last chapter of Proverbs was not written by Solomon, but by King Lemuel, whose mother taught him wisdom.  She speaks, according to verse 1, as an oracle, but what struck me today was that she drew him to obedience by relationship, just as my Heavenly Father and my Savior do me.  This address, three times a declaration of the bond between mother and child, once connected as if a single person, now separated by all but their expressions of love for one another, calls through time, space and eternity from my mothering Holy Spirit to me, a single child of God.  We are related.  We were and are connected.  We are promised to one another.

I celebrate my origin, my relationship, and my destiny in God the Father, through Jesus Christ the Son, by the power and presence of the Holy Spirit.  In my past, my present, and my future, all I am is defined by my relationship with God.  Halleluiah!





From my reading through the Bible,” currently in Ezekiel 34:

There are three parts to the allegory of the sheep and shepherds in this chapter.  The first is a denouncing of the spiritual leaders of God’s people, here the shepherds.

2b Woe to the shepherds of Israel who only take care of themselves!”

The second is a promise of God’s husbandry over the flock, to be presided over by His faithful shepherd, David, a mysterious reference considering David has long died by this writing, though his bloodline has not.

15 I myself will tend my sheep and have them lie down, declares the Sovereign Lord. 16 I will search for the lost and bring back the strays. I will bind up the injured and strengthen the weak, but the sleek and the strong I will destroy. I will shepherd the flock with justice.”

The third is an address to the sheep themselves, cautioning that God’s judgment will come on an individual basis, and not by flocks.  God’s interest is in the individual, every last one!

17 ‘As for you, my flock, this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I will judge between one sheep and another, and between rams and goats.’”

Just to be sure there is no mistaking, God spells out the key to this entire allegory in the closing of the chapter, and with it proclaims the very essence of the hierarchy of humility that unlocks humanity’s hope and happiness for all generations.

24 I the Lord will be their God, and my servant David will be prince among them. I the Lord have spoken.”

31 You my sheep, the sheep of my pasture, are people, and I am your God, declares the Sovereign Lord.’”

Thank God for the Good Shepherd, the Son of David, the Lamb of God!





From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, page 62:

“…we decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be our Director. He is the Principal; we are His agents. He is the Father, and we are His children. Most Good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom.”






*Abstinence began for me on May 11th, 2010.

For the sake of accountability, the details of my eating are posted in my online food log.

In order to get a fresh perspective, I switched from using the New International Version (NIV or “NIV1984”) to a version I have not used before, the New Living Translation (NLT), just for this month’s reading of Proverbs.  I normally avoid switching, because it confuses my attempts at memorization, but I thought it might shed light on the old truths from a different angle and exercise my willingness with a little change.