Abstinent Today:

I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more* day at a time.  †

From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“Before starting out to make amends we must let go of any expectations we may have…” — The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, p. 76”

We have all heard them, and likely committed them ourselves – the backhanded apology.  “I’m really sorry I wasn’t sensitive enough to your weakness.”  “I should never have so insensitively pointed out your ineptitude.”  “For me not to have overlooked your fault was wrong.”  These are our character defects in sheep’s clothing!  They may sound extreme, but they are verbal caricatures of the sentiments in our amends when we fail to wipe out all expectations prior to executing Step Nine amends.  They are the little evidences that we haven’t done Steps One through Eight thoroughly enough.

The “chip on our shoulder” falls away when we bow humbly before God before approaching man.

From Proverbs 2:

10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.”

Hope is a promise of something desirable that gives us courage to endure our present reality and drives us toward that promise.  Twelve-Steppers read a section of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous called “The Promises” (pages 8385) and look forward, with eager anticipation, to the time when they will enjoy the character traits described there.  Christians have the hope of eternity with their Creator to fuel their every move.  This verse is a promise of hope to those who diligently seek, study and pursue Wisdom.  It is the promise of the marriage of spiritual and mental peace that come together under the canopy of God’s providence.  Oh, for the day when my feelings and knowledge meet and are fed together by the hand of God!  Today may be that day.   This may be the hour!

God, nourish my heart and mind with Your Wisdom.  Wash out the clutter I have fed them and balance me – body, mind, and spirit, in Your hands.  According to Your will and design, may it be done, to the glory and in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.  Amen!

From my reading through the Bible, currently in Jeremiah 28:

It is tragic to imagine how many false prophets and detractors from the faith of Christ Jesus there have been in the world.  It seems that, for every genuine article, there are numerous others to counter their product.  I cringe to think of how many encounters I have had with souls reluctant to darken the doors of a church congregation house, who use as their reason the hypocrisy of those entering freely.

In this chapter, a false prophet, Hananiah, convinced the nation of Israel to believe in a lie.  He promised hope that God did not send.  Jeremiah’s tact is commendable.  He began his response with an “amen” that sounds like a Twelve-Step Program slogan, “You may be right.”  He even offered a prayer that the utterances of this religious show-boat might come true (verse 6), but then pointed out there is a measure by which the prophets can be tested – Truth.

But the prophet who prophesies peace will be recognized as one truly sent by the Lord only if his prediction comes true.”

Jeremiah was faithful to deliver the bad news that the yoke of slavery was not to be broken according to the lies of Hananiah, and that Hananiah himself would die within the year.  Two months later, Hananiah was dead.  The Word of the Lord will not be counterfeit, and judgment waits for those who lead God’s children astray!

From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, page 79:

“Reminding ourselves that we have decided to go to any lengths to find a spiritual experience, we ask that we be given strength and direction to do the right thing, no matter what the personal consequences may be.”

(For the sake of accountability, the details of my eating are posted in my online food log.)