Today:

I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more* day at a time.  †

I am spending another day in bed, this time really resting!  I only worked three days this week, but they were in the rain and not conducive to healing.  My bronchitis is not gone, so I will begin another round of antibiotics today.  I really must take better care of myself!

 

From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“The basic concept of Overeaters Anonymous is that compulsive overeating is a disease that affects the person on three levels— physical, spiritual, and emotional.” — Overeaters Anonymous, Second Edition, p. 234

The Triune God works often in threes.  When the Tabernacle was to be moved, the three clans of the tribe of Levi, descendants of Gershon, Kohath and Merari, set about the task with one clan given responsibility for the furnishings, one clan the curtains and coverings, and the other the frames and structural posts.  The work of all three families was necessary to get the job done, and when the Tabernacle was fully assembled, it was then that the glory of the Lord filled the place.  (Reference: Numbers 4)  Likewise, we have a responsibility to take care of our structure, our covering and our contents.  As temples and permanent residences of God’s Spirit, we cannot neglect our duty to properly steward our bodies, minds or spirits.  (Reference: 1 Corinthians 6:19)

As I continually work toward a better understanding of the care God intends for me to take of myself, whittling my will into the shape of His design and rehabilitating my total self from the long-term neglect it has suffered under the condition of the numbed indulgence of compulsive overeating, He is faithful to reveal what measures should be taken.  My job is to remain willing to do them.  The Golden Rule, “Love thy neighbor as thyself,” is a directive of care, not emotion; and it starts with loving (caring for the needs of) oneself!

 

From Proverbs 21:

16 A man who strays from the path of understanding
comes to rest in the company of the dead.”

To expect no reward for complacency is understandable, but this warning is severe: the penalty for indifference is death.  This is clear enough incentive to remain diligent in the careful following of understanding and wisdom.  Discerning every step and planting each according to the will of God must remain my highest priority.

 

From my reading through the Bible, currently in Jeremiah 17:

This whole chapter is too beautiful not to read, but these sections spoke loudest to me:

This is what the Lord says:

‘Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength
and whose heart turns away from the Lord.
He will be like a bush in the wastelands;
he will not see prosperity when it comes.
He will dwell in the parched places of the desert,
in a salt land where no one lives.

‘But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.’

The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?”

I echo the prayer of Jeremiah, “14 Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.”

 

 

From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, pages 4243:

“Some of us have taken very hard knocks to learn this truth: Job or no job—wife or no wife—we simply do not stop drinking so long as we place dependence upon other people ahead of dependence on God.”

(For accountability’s sake, the details of my eating are posted in my online food log.)

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