I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more day at a time.


From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“Before this Step, it was all about me—my powerlessness, my beliefs, my shortcomings, and my plans to resolve them. This Step changed all of that. The deference—‘respect or esteem due to a superior’—clarified who was in power, who I should believe in, and the reason for giving over my shortcomings. It is all about becoming the person that my Higher Power needs me to be in order to carry out His will. That is what my program is about. With this Step I have surrendered my role as principal and joined the chorus of the Fellowship.”


The contributor, responding to Step Seven – “Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings,” spoke of recovery from what I once called a “my-way addiction.”

It is hard to get through Step Three with the my-way addiction in full swing, but for me, putting down the bottle is a lot different than being free of the desire to pick it back up, and this is much the same.  The Big Book calls this “self-will run riot.”  In Step Three, I sort of buckled self-will, kicking and screaming, into its highchair, and decided to let God have His way.  Four and Five taught me that my-way was killing me and mine, and the toddler seemed to grow a few inches and much quieter.  Six and Seven put me in proper attitude alignment with the One who could and would do something about what was wrong with me, and my self-will grew into willingness to be obedient, and stood up adorned with a uniform of service.


From Proverbs 1:

1 The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:

for attaining wisdom and discipline;
for understanding words of insight;
for acquiring a disciplined and prudent life,
doing what is right and just and fair;
for giving prudence to the simple,
knowledge and discretion to the young—
let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance—
for understanding proverbs and parables,
the sayings and riddles of the wise.”


Who wouldn’t want that?  Oh, yeah – the selfish, juvenile, my-way addict!


From my reading through the Bible, currently in Isaiah 31:

1 Woe to those who go down to Egypt for help,
who rely on horses,
who trust in the multitude of their chariots
and in the great strength of their horsemen,
but do not look to the Holy One of Israel,
or seek help from the Lord.”


Selfish pride relies on the creation rather than the Creator.  There is nothing I can handle without God, and yet there is nothing God can’t handle.  To rely on anything but Him, especially given what I have learned about myself by working the Steps, is just insanity!


From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, page 62:

“So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he usually doesn’t think so. Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness. We must, or it kill us! God makes that possible. And there often seems no way of entirely getting rid of self without His aid.”