I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more day at a time.

I survived yesterday without claiming it as mine, though the calendar description tempted me to do just that.  To help in this battle of self, our little family nucleus traveled together to visit the fathers of my wife and me.  Starting the day with the celebration of our Heavenly Father, sharing the day with the aforementioned grandfathers, and taking time out to acknowledge my children’s very helpful stepfather helped me to keep the day in perspective.

From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“We can confidently face any situation life brings, because we no longer have to face it alone. We have what we need any time we are willing to let go of self-will and humbly ask for help.” — The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, p. 27

The truth is we were never alone, but the fellowship is there to remind us of the facts when the feelings overshadow them.  The facts are these:

  • We are naturally incapable of succeeding in this life without the help of the One who created us;
  • God is waiting for us to discover the naked futility of our independence and turn to Him;
  • He has provided everything we need to fulfill our purpose and destiny when we discover it and turn from the natural way of living.

God won’t pilot the ships of our lives from the cargo hold.  If knowledge of the Creator is something locked away like a valuable but inaccessible treasure, or vaguely acknowledged as some sort of mandated safety equipment one hopes might never be employed, the vessel is sure to experience turbulent weather and tides, and is ultimately doomed to shipwreck.  Since pride is at the root of our dysfunction, the reduction of self is necessary to access the help that was always available in God and the new help we find in the hands and hearts of those among us.  Gradually, as we begin to test the mettle of the basic principles of recovery, we repeatedly prove them effective, and gradually build our confidence in them.  With the encouragement of all hands rallying behind us, we find that bringing the True Captain to the helm is not a sacrifice that brings loss, but one that brings our seas to a calm, fills our sails, and speeds us on a true heading of life, love, and happiness.

From Proverbs 18:

A fool’s mouth is his undoing,
and his lips are a snare to his soul.”

12 Before his downfall a man’s heart is proud,
but humility comes before honor.”

Pride is the source and cause of all sorts of untied knots and fouled lines on a vessel piloted by defiance.  The gurgling gulp of the self-assured calls out from the swirling torrents of his demise, “Not even God could sink this ship!”  There is a lot said in this chapter about the spoken word and the airing of one’s opinions, but the underlying fact is that the fruit of our lips reveal the alignment of our trust.  When our trust is in the Lord, we are safe, secure, fit and finished with all we need.  When our trust is in ourselves, it is in our best interest that a loving God would pitch and roll us until we accept our proper station and submit to His command and control.  The One who sees all and loves us would never idly allow us to sail to our demise without extending hope.  That hope is ours to accept or reject.  I choose to extinguish pride and accept God’s providence!

“…We have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, and especially of those who believe.” (1 Timothy 4:10)

From my reading through the Bible, currently in Isaiah 7:

When Ahaz the descendent of David was king of Judah, he was found cowering between two allied armies, and was warned, “9b If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.”  God, through Isaiah told him to choose a sign, but he refused, even in his fearful state, to try God.  The result was that God chose for him the signs that would come.  Among the curse of the land around him and the plagues of thistles and bees, there was a sign that has been celebrated since the arrival of the God-man, Christ:

14 Therefore the Lord himself will give you[c] a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and[d] will call him Immanuel.[e]

Precious God, my Savior, I lay my life at Your feet so that You may be above and in all that I am, say, or do.  Demonstrate Your will in whatever way You wish.  I submit to Your supernatural control and power.  I acknowledge that You are far superior to all I may fear or resent, and I humbly lay those petty obstacles under Your feet to crush as You see fit.  Thank You for deliverance from the bondage of self.  Continue to lead me from it, that I may remain faithful.

From Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 21:

“Who cares to admit complete defeat?  Practically no one, of course.  Every natural instinct cries out against the idea of personal powerlessness.”

“But upon entering A.A. we soon take quite another view of this absolute humiliation. We perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.”