I am a recovering compulsive overeater, abstinent by the grace of God one more day at a time.  For details, check out my food journal.



From today’s entry in Voices of Recovery:

“When we focus our discussions on the principles embodied in the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, when we share how we’ve found the solution to our eating problems through practicing these principles, we discover that  we carry the message to those who still suffer, and to ourselves as well. No matter how much recovery we have, we still need to hear the OA message.” — The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, pp. 145-146

It seems strange that we might carry the message to ourselves, but I have often proved that mine are the ears best positioned to hear the words of my mouth.  When I have been so self-absorbed that I could not hear the truth in anyone else, God has made sure that I heard it from my own lips, often even taking me by surprise!  Reprogramming compulsive behavior into self-sacrificing service takes repeated exposure to hope, constructive experience, and a message of strength.  This repetition of truth is carving new paths in our pain-scarred brain tissues, making a new way through the jungle of confusion that once eclipsed any thoughts but the most primal urges of self-indulgence, book-ended by fear and shame.



From Proverbs 18:

It is odd that the Voices of Recovery entry today revolved around messages of word, especially from one’s own mouth, given that most of Proverbs 18 concerns just that.  Right in the middle of several verses that warn about speaking rashly or from a self-centered vane is this lustrous gem:

4 The words of a man’s mouth are deep waters,
but the fountain of wisdom is a bubbling brook.”

I have often reflected on this verse, because the metaphors are not as obvious as some.  At first one might think as I did, what is so bad about deep waters?  Deep waters and the words of men, can be smooth on the surface and deadly in their depth.  They appear vast reservoirs of healing sustenance, but can conceal in their darkness monstrous evil that tear men’s flesh.  They invite one to refresh themselves in their coolness, and can take them under without warning or remedy.  The bubbling brook, in contrast, is a constant supply of refreshment, proving itself, moving among the rocky places of earth until even the hardest of surfaces are smoothed down.  It is cool, it is clear, it overwhelms no one, but is the universal remedy, rescuing the thirsty and sustaining the content.  Man, beast, bird and fish are all blessed by this continual fountain, wisdom.



From my reading through the Bible, currently in Psalm 35 and 36:

In most of Psalm 35, David prayed for his enemies to be humbled, but in the closing I found a blessing with an insightful glimpse into the personality of God and a resolution of praise.

27 May those who delight in my vindication
shout for joy and gladness;
may they always say, “The LORD be exalted,
who delights in the well-being of his servant.”
28 My tongue will speak of your righteousness
and of your praises all day long.”

The Lord delights in the well-being of His servant!  This makes me want two things: to ensure that I am in alignment with His will, so I can always be considered His servant and never His opponent; and to follow His delights to ensure my continued well-being.  If His delight is that I am fueled with kale and cranberries, far be it for me to indulge in circus treats and ballpark meats.

In Psalm 36, David pours out a truth within him concerning the sin that proceeds from the wicked.

2 For in his own eyes he flatters himself
too much to detect or hate his sin.
3 The words of his mouth are wicked and deceitful;
he has ceased to be wise and to do good.”

Vanity is the polluter of the wells of men.  Nothing that comes from such is fit for use.  It poisons those who drink it, and stains those who bathe in its water.  It intoxicates the one who carries it so he does not know, until a sampling of the sweet waters of Wisdom compel his taste to recognize, his contents have soured.



From the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, “How It Works” page 62:

“Many of us had moral and philosophical convictions galore, but we could not live up to them even though we would have liked to. Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God’s help.”




“Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well.”  3 John 2