Voices of Recovery today quotes page 71 of the 12 Steps and 12 Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, “The writing process can be very healing because more than any other tool of our program, it gets us in touch with our true feelings.  Writing clarifies emotions.” Writing is my favorite tool of recovery.  It keeps me transparent.  What I feel I write.  Most of what I write I share.  This keeps me from harboring ill thoughts and makes me check each one to the end before going to bed with it.  By copying down my morning meditations, I reemphasize them in my mind, clarify what they mean to me, and store them with all of my senses.  I feel as the VOR contributor writes, “I find the writing tool indispensable to my recovery, my life, and my relationships.”

Proverbs 13:12 reads, “Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.”  I know this verse well, from repeated visits with it when disappointment was the banner under which I lived my life.  Only now that I have a clearer view of the truth of it, can I see how I had some responsibility for my own disappointment.  Verse 19 could supplement nicely, “A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul, but fools detest turning from evil.”  My heart-sickness was directly related to my refusal to turn from my habits of self-service, my following after the cravings of my flesh.  As soon as I got myself out of the way, I commenced to experience the soul-sweet flavor of this “tree of life” of healthy balance.  Thank You, God!

In 1 Samuel Chapters 9 and 10, Saul, a boy from Kish, set out to find some lost donkeys and returned home a king.  Some high points of this story for me are: God’s attentiveness to His children in 9:16, “I have looked upon m people for their cry has reached me.”  Saul’s humility in 9:21, “…am I not a Benjamite, from the smallest tribe of Israel and is not my clan the least…?”  The promise of the Holy Spirit’s changing power in 10:6, “The Spirit of the LORD will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person.”  The core sculpting of a man’s heart by God in 10:9, “God changed Saul’s heart, and all these signs were fulfilled that day.”  I am grateful for the life-changing power of God.  I feel like I can relate to Saul, because I was chasing after the desires of an ass, but God delivered me to a royalty of sorts, the princehood of His sonship.  Holy Spirit, blow through my heart and soul.  Blast away the crusty remains of my defects and whisk away the debris of my harmful past.  Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit within me.  Restore to me the joy of your salvation and lead me in the way everlasting.

I learn that honesty is truth, and the truth shall make us free!

  Sensuality, drunkenness, and worldliness satisfy a man for a time, but their power is a decreasing one. God produces harmony in those who receive His Spirit and follow Its dictates.

  Today as I become more harmonized within, I become more in tune with all of God’s wonderful creation. The singing of the birds, the sighing of the wind, the patter of raindrops, the roll of thunder, the laughter of happy children, add to the symphony with which I am in tune. The heaving ocean, the driving rain, autumn leaves, the stars of heaven, the perfume of flowers, music, a smile, and a host of other things tell me of the glory of God.”  (from “Our Southern Friend,” Alcoholics Anonymous)